Once apon a time there was a girl. She was a very happy girl, opptamistic and always looked on the bright side of life. As she grew up, life never brought her down. She always found joy in life and knew that to be happy was better. She had a pretty easy life nothing to bad happened to her, besides the self esteem issues. She had depression issues and always put up that happy front, she was genuenly happy but suffered many nights from a deep depression. She never believed in herself and didnt think she was ever going to do something great. She always keep things bottled up inside and never really like to express how she was felt. This led in to her later teen years and her young adult life.
But like every teen girl she was interested in boys. This helped her with self esteem but she never let herself get to close. As she was growing up her mother intstilled in her how important it was to be independent and it became natural for her to not need anyone. Being the independent girl she was helped guard her heart and through highschool she never fell in love with anyone.
But all good girls fall once right? Her sophmore year when she moved to a new state and started a new school, she got pluged into the wrong crowd. This lead down a somewhat dark path… She never was a very bad kid even going down this dark path but she did lose her innocence to a boy who she thought she was in love with. But looking back on it to this day she knew that someone was protecting her because that ended just as fast as it had started and good thing to.
After the short period of “darkness” she told herself she was no longer going to give it up again and she wasn’t going to date for a while. You see, the boy hurt her and left scares that wouldn’t effect her till later in her life. Although going through that she never lost that joy and was still “soft hearted” moving forward. later that year she met a boy. This boy she thought was the best thing that happened to her, he had just as much joy for life as she did and he introduced her to a life that was so much more fullfilling. She let him into her heart. She loved him more then she knew how to love. He was the best thing to have happened to her, he was the first boy she was ever in love with and thought they would be together forever. But all good things must come to an end right? Their realationship ended just like it had started, out of no where. He broke her heart multiple times before they finally called it quites. It took along time to heal her heart and even to this day her heart is never the same. During that sad period she changed, she wouldn’t let anyone in her heart again and decided that being independent was the only thing that she had to hold onto. If she was independent and could make it through life with or without a man then she would be safe, she didn;t want to be left broken ever again.
After a few relationship that she didn’t really give it her all and a few years later she found another boy. This guy she thought would be another relationship where it most likly wouldn’t last and then she would just continue on untill she found the one. Well little did she know at the time that he would forever change her. He would make it have to let him in weather she wanted to or not. He would test her and challenge her. He would make her cry but give her so much joy. She would fall in love with him without knowing it. They had a passionate realtionship, both when they loved each other and when they fought. She would 2nd guess them when their fighting got bad but knew she needed him, but she wouldn’t dare tell him that. She went into their relationship independent and was determined to stay that way.
A few months in they broke up. She at first thought she was ok because she was independent and knew she was going to be ok, but as they days past she missed him more then she ever had. She realized how much she loved him and how much she missed him. He had become a part of her that she couldn’t lose even if she tried. She loved him and didn’t know it fully, untill that break happened. She kept telling herself she was ok but she wasn’t, her heart was so broken that when he asked her to come back she didn’t hesitate. Well after they got back togther she knew something was different and they found out she was pregneant.
This time she knew they needed to try their hardest to work but she still knew that if something where to happen that she would be able to do it on her own and her mindset was that she could do this alone. She didn’t want to do it alone but like before she wasn’t going to let that ruin her. She loved him and their relationship was still just as passionate as ever. All their fight were but as well as when they loved each other. She went to bed many night crying herself to sleep but some night she when to bed knowing she was so in love with him that it hurt. They fought over the same things because neither one of them wanted to budge. And she wasn’t about to be the first one to give in. But one night their fighting got so out of hand she thought it was the end. She didn’t tell him that but she had feelings that she felt didn’t matter. Even with a baby growing she felt so alone. So of course in her anger she told him how she felt and she didn’t care how she said it. But as he replied back sinceare and soft she broke. She realized that she needed him more then she thought she did. She loved him more then she ever thought she did. Her heart was his and that she didn’t want anyone else but him.
This guy finally broke her, she was so independent that to her it was protecting her heart…but to him it wasn’t letting him in. He is the only one to have broken through that wall, the only one to make her realize that she needs someone. The only way to be truly happy is to let someone in and help. That even though they have their issues and will disappoint her, she needs to let her in. She wants her daughter to grow up knowing she can do it on her own, but to be truly happy is to let someone in and help her. To take the burden take the weight of the world off her shoulders. She needs him more then she needs she realized.
This is a story of a man who broke past the hardness of woman. Who didn’t want to let anyone in but finally did, knowing that she might get her heart broken again.